It's 20mins to my birthday. I am alone at home in my room, feeling hungry. 60% of the things went wrong recently. What is happening?
喜新厌旧-that's not the right thing to do, I know. But what choice do I have? Everyone is becoming so weird. I don't click with them as much anymore. Not that I like the new people... it just that they are more... normal. And so I feel that the old ones are becoming weirder and weirder. As if they hate me. Do they?
Well I just felt that it is so wrong to post such a sad thing somewhere everyone will see, so I decided to express it here. I hope nobody sees it for the next few months. Till then, I would have forgotten my birthday.
I know I might not sound reeeeeeally sad here... but I swear I feel extremely down right in my heart now. I feel so isolated, so outcast, so unimportant. Anyway I'm already slightly better now. I felt like I had depression when I just reached home just now. Maybe I DO have depression... a mild one? Cus I'm not a wrist slitter.
OH GAWD it's so pathetic for me to post such a thing just a few minutes before my day.
(10 more mins...)

也许一天再相逢
说声好久不见 沉默了
曾经我打听过
你最近的生活
忙碌工作之余
是否有运动
今天和昨日不同
我不在你身旁
不甘寂寞的你
是不是很难过
至于我过得还不错
不如以前疯
那一家迪斯科
我再也没去过
天凉了
挂念了
有从前还是好的
这熟透的脸孔
我还真的舍不得
和你的
记住了
虽然将来会尘封
也许一天再相逢
说声好久不见
沉默了
我希望是一片云朵
飘到你的天空
安安静静地望着
你是否快乐
只能这样了
不打扰
你平静生活
亲爱的 我在这
祝你平安喜乐
天凉了
挂念了
有从前还是好的
这熟透的脸孔
我还真的舍不得
和你的
记住了
虽然将来会尘封
也许一天再相逢
说声好久不见
沉默了
天凉了
挂念了
有从前还是好的
这熟透的脸孔
我还真的舍不得
和你的
记住了
虽然将来会尘封
也许一天再相逢
说声好久不见
沉默了

OKAY I'M LIKE TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH 张雁名 NOW HE'S A TOTAL HOTTIE HE MIGHT BE ONE OF MY REASONS TO WATCH HOT SHOT LIKE THE SAME RATIO AS PIG OR JERRY OKAY IF YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T RESIST AND HE'S TALL TOO AND THAT STUPID TONGTONG DIDN'T CHOOSE HIM IN YLBFB IS SHE DUMB OR DUMBER IF I WERE HER I WOULD CHOOSE HIM IMMEDIATELY WITHOUT HAVING TO GO THROUGH ALL THOSE STUPID GAMES OR MAYBE I WOULD PRETEND TO MISS THE BALL THEN I CAN GET TO KISS HIM 9 TIMES HAHAHAHAH AND DO YOU KNOW HE'S IN KELLY'S MV THAT'S SO UNFAIR WHY DIDN'T I JOIN SUPERSTAR THEN I CAN HUG HIM FOR ALL I WANT AND TAKE SO MANY PICTURES WITH HIM ALSO BUT HIS APPEARENCE IN THE MV IS VERY LITTLE, JUST A FEW REPEATED BLUR SCENES HOW CAN THE DIRECTOR DO THIS HE'S KILLING ME THIS IS THE ONLY MV HE'S IN AND HE GIVE HIM SO FEW SCENES HOW CAN HE DO THIS TO ME?!!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!??

EVERYTHING SUCKS WHY CAN'T EVERYTHING U-TURN TO A FEW MONTHS BACK WHERE OUR REALTIONSHIP WAS SO GOOD? I REALLY MISS IT. I HATE SHOUTING AND SCREAMING AT YOU. YES, I DO KNOW THAT I'M NOT DOING THE RIGHT THING BY SCREAMING AT YOU. BUT IF YOU DID NOT PROVOKE ME, DO YOU THINK I WOULD HAVE DONE ALL THAT? DO YOU KNOW THAT THE FEELING SUCKS WHEN YOU CONTINUE DOING SOMETHING EVEN THOUGH YOU KNOW IT'S WRONG BECAUSE YOU HAVE NO CHOICE? K FINE YOU PROBALY DON'T KNOW THAT. AND I KNOW THAT YOUR MOOD THESE DAYS ARE PROBALY DUE TO WHAT HAPPENED 2 NIGHTS AGO BUT DO YOU HAVE TO VENT IT ALL ON ME? IT'S UNFAIR. AND YOU SAID I WAS UNFAIR BY NOT GOING OUT WITH YOU. NO, IT DOSENT MAKE SENSE. AND WHILE I WAS ABOUT TO GIVE IN AND GO OUT, I REALISED YOU WERE NOT THERE ANYMORE. CAN'T YOU JUST GIVE ME A LITTLE MORE TIME?????!?!?!!?!?!?!!!?!?!?!

OMG today is hyperrrrrrrrrrrr.
12.40pm: woke up
12.40pm-1pm: wash up
1pm-9.30am: ylbfb+kangxi all the way
9.30pm-10pm: bathe
10pm-2.50am: kangxi all the way

Like, I watched 12 eps of kangxi and 1 ep of ylbfb!!!!!! :o :o :o
I wonder if I broke my previous record. haha.
But I'm quite disappointed in myself cus I can't believe I got so hooked on kangxi that I didn't watch Ww.Kt AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
K nvm shall go sleep now. Like, 2.50am? and I'm supposed to wake up 3h10mins later? :o
This dosen't sound good..... )))))))):

JERRY I DON'T CARE YOU MUST MARRY ME.

p.s ching don't you dare insult him okay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!